Unmatched

Well, we are officially unmatched from the birth family with the August baby girl. It is a decision that we made today and we feel like it was the right decision for us to make. We are heartbroken and sad to say that we won't be parents of that little girl, but we will move forward one step at a time. We will go back into matchbooks that are shown to birth moms when they are ready to match. We are praying for the right people to see our letter, choose us, and to do this quickly would be ideal. Please join us in praying for our next step in this crazy, confusing, heartbreaking journey we are on. We know that God has grand plans for our family and it's just a matter of seeing His plans unfold in His timing. (I hate being patient, but that is what I will have to be again.)

I'm sure you are wondering what happened with our match... It has nothing to do with us, but has everything to do with the birth family. I am resting in that fact right now so I don't feel bad about ourselves. About a week after we were officially matched with this birth family, they had some hardships in their lives. Due to choices they were making, they got kicked out the the extended stay hotel they were living in. You can use your imagination about what was going on in order to be asked to leave, since this isn't something we are sharing with people.

Upon their departure from the extended stay, the agency lost contact with them. They don't have cell phones and no one knew where they were going. We have been sitting and waiting for them to get in contact with the agency. It's been about 3 weeks now with no contact. Three long weeks.

I'm sure there are many reasons why they didn't ever contact the agency again: embarrassment, change of heart about adoption, birth mom is young and immature and trying to deal with very grown up decisions, etc. We may never know the reason and that's ok. The hard part of this whole thing is that we felt like baby girl was ours. We really  believed it. So, now we are grieving the loss of our daughter and get ready for a completely new plan.

We go back into matchbooks now. We ready ourselves for a completely different child. We continue praying and preparing. We move forward. We don't really have another choice.

So please pray for that baby girl and her life with whomever parents her. Pray for us and we grieve and move on. Pray for the baby that does come into our house to come quickly and be ready for a party!