So... we got a call today from the pregnancy counselor. The call wasn't the great news we were hoping for. It wasn't terrible news either. I guess it was just news (maybe a little bit "bad"). I'm rambling, I know.

I guess birth mom needs more time before making a decision to move forward. I'm not sure why. I am not even really sure about what she was saying on the phone because time started standing still and I couldn't really gather my thoughts enough to ask all the things I really wanted to know. She also was being very vague on purpose. I did manage to ask if they were questioning whether or not they wanted to make an adoption plan. She said that was not the case (phew) but they need time to work some things out. I think that's what she said. It doesn't really matter exactly.

I know what you're thinking: How dare her make Kim wait longer. I know you're thinking this because I thought it too. (notice how cam wasn't included in my thought... it was all about me.) I'm not really sure how I took that news that we would now have to wait until Friday to maybe get an answer. (My thought was, & I think I said it out loud, "You have got to be kidding me!) So, I'm not sure how I took it. I guess I just took it. I have a lot of choices in this whole adoption thing, but when it comes to getting semi-bad news, there are only a few choices to make: head up and take another step OR freak out. You can't move forward while freaking out, so if you choose the latter then you are just prolonging the movement. It's a nasty cycle.

After getting the news today I was cleaning my house and just thinking about things. I felt very strongly that the Lord kept reminding me of a verse and I just kept repeating it as I vacuumed.

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 
Philippians 4:12 

We are trying to have God's perspective and focus on His will for our lives. We may not understand it, but we trust Him. Please continue to pray for us. We need a whole boat-load of peace right now. Birth mom needs guidance in making her decision on this. By the way, we are thankful if birth mom wrestles through these decisions and figures all this out before we become formally matched, so we know that this part of her process is very important, even though we don't know exactly what the hang ups are.

On a lighter note... Tonight we celebrated an anniversary. It has been 1 year since we met our best adoption friends, Whit and Ally. They are the wonderful people that listen when we complain.  Ally is the wonderful person that listens when I complain. They have been very special to us since they seem like they are the only ones that understand exactly (or close to) how we are feeling. We celebrated this anniversary with a dinner and chocolate pie at our house. It was wonderful.

Our 1st and hopefully last picture of us before becoming parents. Whit and Ally are matched with a birth mom that will be having her baby in 2 weeks from now. 

Chocolate pie is yum. 

Cameron couldn't wait for them to arrive so he sat at the table and began sneaking appetizers. I had to cut him off, but I did think it was funny that he was sitting at the dinner table by himself. 

We are so thankful for Whit and Ally and our friendship. I know you'll read a lot more about them because they are so important to us. It's late now and I wanted to post since I knew you'd be wondering. 

We are so glad you wonder. 

the ending of an era

I've been very blessed to have wonderful friends in my life. There are two in particular that have a very special place in my heart. We have known each other since 7th grade at Phoenix Christian. We went to school together for 6 years. We parted ways in college and went our separate routes while keeping in touch. We now all live in the back in the valley and are all married. We run in different circles, but make time to have our famous "girls breakfast" at the marvelous La Grande Orange. 

It has been a blessing to know such loving, kind, creative, smart, funny, genuine, God-fearing women. There is something sweet about a long friendship. A special bond is formed when your history is long and your memories are many. That bond is set in stone going through braces, boyfriends, Young Life, bad hair,  and the list goes on. 

I mentioned that it's the end of an era, and I did because our Jessica is getting ready to become a mother. She is the first of this trio and we had our last official "girls breakfast" this week before she has her beautiful daughter. Our chats will be forever changed as we become moms, but our connection will only deepen. 

Jessica (&baby), Bex, and me at LGO